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age / im running out of excuses

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I'm running out of excuses

For my laziness.
I can't say it's because I'm uncomfortable
Because I just got a new bed.
I can't say it's because of fear
Because the night monsters stopped years ago.
So I'll just sit there while you yell at me
(I can't tell you it's because I stay up all night either
Because you won't understand that the Internet is a better home
You'll just laugh and say that's my age talking)

For my moodiness.
I can't say it's because of school
Because no one tries to bully me
I can't say it's because I'm hurt
Because I stopped going outside.
I can't say it's because I'm angry
Because what is there to be angry about? We (you) are perfect.
So I'll just sit there and let you scream at me
(I can't tell you that it's because I'm always sad
Because you won't understand that I can't forget what happened
You'll just laugh and say that's my age talking)

For my anti-socialness.
I can't say it's because I'm scared
Because I'm a young woman now, not a child.
I can't say it's because I'm busy
Because who wants to spend time with me?
I can't say it's because I have work to do
Because I can't be bothered with school, and I'm not talented enough for lessons.
So I'll just sit there while you sigh and scold me
(I can't tell you it's because I start panicking
Because you won't understand that I'm too insecure for insecurity
You'll just laugh and say that's my age talking.)

You'll never see this
Because I'm too young to be writing like this.
You'll never see this
Because everyone else deserves more attention.
Because I'm perfect
Spotless
Unflawed
So I don't need attention.

But if you do see it
And see all the excuses I never told you
You won't do anything.
But laugh and say
That's
Just
My
Age
Talking.

Because it is.
Isn't it?
No more monsters in the dark
But I may have a few left in my head.
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phetamines's avatar
This is really amazing. I feel like this sometimes, when my parents won't listen to me because they're more concerned about themselves. It's a great poem, and you're really very talented. c: